Monday, July 27, 2009

*Breaking news alert*

CBB just text me:

"Hey sorry lost my phone for a week plus went to the ER cause i found out i tore my hip flexer muscle"

And now I'm more confused. Honestly, I didn't think CBB would be a douche and just go on ignoring me. So, that would explain things.

Though I don't want to be duped and believe him like the Marine when he lies to me 99% of the time and I believed him.

What do I do?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Lookin' for a good time

Hmmm I don't think in the history of booty calls, I have ever got the Saturday afternoon booty call. And to much of my delight, I liked it. Here goes the story of how I'm getting over CBB, simply by getting under someone.

Friday night, aimed w/ my best eye makeup and what I thought would have been a cuter outfit, but in hind site the outfit kind of sucked. Oh well, something I did worked that night.

Louise and I were on a mission to find the best damn mojitos in Madison. We landed at Frida's which is a super yummy place to eat. After finding the best mojitos (ask for the blueberry ones) we easily downed 3 of them. We were feeling great at this point. After random texting with people, I tried getting M to come out, he declined, so I randomly text my friend Rob. Rob and I have never hooked up, which is pretty neat, I seem to hook up w/ all my guy friends. He and a bunch of his friends were hanging out at the Great Dane downtown. Louise and I made our way over to his group.

He had a random group of people he was with. I noticed a guy behind him and I asked if he knew who he was. So, Rob turned around and asked who he was. Rob turned back to us and reported he was single and a med student. Sweet, sign me up for that.

Louise and I went to the bathroom together (yes we are girls that do that) and came back to our table/area. I tried getting past the cute med student but my boob so graciously touched his arm. I apologized to him for my boob touching him. He was very cute. Shorter, dark sexy brown eyes and dressed nice. He joked he had put his popped collar up for us. We joked and talked for a bit. He excused himself to go to another table. A bit later, he said he was leaving to go to another bar where I think/can't remember what all was said, but he gave me a kiss on the cheek and said good bye. I took down his phone number and said I would call him. Rob then took over for my phone and decided to text him asking where he was. Med student replied he was at Paul's club. I didn't want to leave so we hung out longer at the Dane drinking. I then grabbed my phone and text Med student back saying he should come back to the Dane. Rob then yelled at me saying I said the wrong thing. Med student didn't text back. UGH! Seriously, how can I fk up that bad in the texting world? It was almost bar time, so I went home.

I had gotten home that night and was all settled in my bed when I get a text from Med student saying "Let's meet up" I text back that I was already home in bed.

Saturday morning I was barely waking up when I got a text. Figuring it was my friend or something, I looked and it was the Med student asking what I was doing today. What? I figured our texting had ended last night, but here he was texting me Saturday morning asking what I was doing. I told him I was nursing my hangover. He said he had one too and that he could use some couch company. Did he just ask me to hang out? I quickly text Louise asking what the heck to wear to a "getting over a hangover w/ a guy you met last night" He then text me that he was going to take a nap and that I was welcome to join him.

Hmm let's see, cute boy asks you to come nap with him. You don't have to be a rocket scientist to figure out that it was a Saturday afternoon booty call in the making. Awesome. Just what I needed/wanted.

I head over, we do the deed twice, nap and then I leave. All within a 2 1/2 hour time period. (of course during the time we are having sex I look over at this closet and notice military clothing. Seriously, he didn't mention the military once and someone how I found him)

I think I have found my calling. No more dating. Just random hook ups. I'm much better at random hook ups than dating.

All good things must come to an end...

And here it is.

CBB played the disappearing act this last week. Really dude? I hate that shit. We hung out last Thursday for a bit, things were cool. Or so I thought. Yeah, I may have asked him the question of "why do you like me?" ONLY because he has pulled that crap on me countless times before, so it's only natural for me to ask him? I guess I was wrong. We didn't text the whole time I was out of town. Wednesday night I sent a simple text asking how he was doing. And I haven't heard jack squat from him since. I hate men. What seemed like a decent enough guy, is pretty much on my shit list now. I could go on and on about how super pissed I am about this, but I don't even want to waste my time or energy bitching about him. He is a dick.

As for M. Meh, our last class is done Monday night so I'm not sure I will ever see/talk to him again. We both don't think there is enough there. Which is true, while physically I'm super duper attracted to him, I don't for see myself having a relationship with him.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

He's baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!

My Ray Ray.

Yes. I know, I know, I KNOW. What can I say? He has a itty bitty special place in my itty bitty heart.

How did it happen?

He poked me on Facebook. I ignored. He then sent me an email. We emailed back and fourth a bit and then last night I chatted with him on Facebook. He admitted it was DUMB for him to stop talking to me. I then let him know again, how dumb it was. He then said that it was my sister who made him realize how dumb he is.

Then I called him. I normally can't stand southern accents. But Ray's voice gets me every.single.freaking.time. I like how he says my name. So sue me.

Am I taking a risk being his friend? Yes, probably. Have some of my friends voiced their concern. Yes. I have taken notes. Am I running down to Florida to be with him? Hell no. Baby steps at this point. I do have other things going on in my life right now so that does help a bit.

Onto other exciting news:

I think M tried ending it w/ me on Monday. But I wouldn't let him. Why? I have no idea.

Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut. CBB and I are hanging out tonight FINALLY after two weeks of not seeing each other AND texting and what not. Eeeeek. I'm excited to see the boy.

What can I say? I'll be the first to admit, I like attention from guys, so sue me, again!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

I don't know what to think/do anymore...

I'll admit it. I'm a sucker for those dating self help books. The ones like "He's just not that into you" or "Why men love bitches" or my latest that is sitting right next to my bed "Act like a lady, think like a man" The number one reason I choose these books is simply because I don't know what to think/do anymore when it comes to dating.

If you look back at my history of dating dumb idiots. But am I the idiot? Am I supposed to follow these books step by step? Some say this, some say do that. It leaves me second guessing everything I do now a days. Which leaves me frustrated and unsure and makes me analyze the situation that much more. Am what I doing in this dating world normal?

I look at some people I know who have never had a problem dating. They meet. Fall in love. Get married. End of story.

Whoa. That's not how it happens in the Andrea story at all. It usually goes something like this: Meet potential guy. Guy seems semi normal. Guy is semi normal up until a point. Guy then does something usually shady to Andrea. Andrea then questions everything because basically every guy in Andrea's past has done something similar and is wondering if she will get duped again by shady stupid guy. Guy then proves all guys are scum bags. End of story. And then the vicious cycle happens again and again.

I then look at the books that I study and say "of course, in this books it points out the obvious signs of why he wasn't into me" Too bad I didn't read the book first and that way I could have gotten rid of the idiot prior to him making a fool of myself.

So case in point. Right now, M is for surely out of my life. Quick story short, by being bored at work I found out he is married and getting a divorce. Yes, getting a divorce is a good step, but being still married and him NOT mentioning it, even while one night he mentioned to me he was at the age of 19 thisclose to getting married. Ok so at 19 you were close to getting married, but by my detective work, I found out you ARE married. Awesome. But do you know what's really really really annoying me, besides the whole marriage thing? I called him Wednesday night a wee bit intoxicated. He did not return my phone call. I then called him Friday night due to school related stuff and when I asked, why he didn't return my phone call from Wednesday night, he said he never had a call from me. I then think to myself in the book "He's just not that into you" and realize, it's the year 2009 and M has an iphone. He didn't get my phone call? Riiiiiiiiight. Unless you live out by where my parents live and they don't get any cell phone reception, then sure I'll believe ya, but dude, I ain't buying it. Oh, and of course I then called him last night to thank him for school related things and he didn't call me back. But then that makes me question myself wondering if I scared him away by calling him to much. Again, since those books I read normally say "don't call a guy blah blah blah" I automatically think I'm the annoying one here and it's my fault.

And now I sit here questioning CBB's recent actions and in my head going through a timeline of everything and anything he has said/did since the last time I saw him. While a normal girl would not worry about CBB right now, I sit here and think in the back of my mind "he is just dragging me along for the ride and about to drop me at any second" It's like I'm trying to brace myself for the worst action possible, so I come to think of the worse case scenario. Welcome to my brain. Yes, telling me to just stop worrying would be awesome if I could just do exactly that.

Am I to blame in these failing relationships? Is it my fault? Is it the stupid shady guys fault? Should I throw out all and every dating book I have? (though not the one next to my bed, that's the libraries book and they aren't to fond of you throwing out their books and I'm not fond of paying a fine)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Worry wart alert.

Hey remember the time I made a post about me actually not worrying.

Here I sit 2 days later. Worried.

Why? I HAVE NO FREAKING CLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Normally when I worry, it's because something feels "off" or it's me analyzing the heck out of a situation.

Yes, I have been thinking about what CBB said the other day. He drunk text me last night and it was cute (no serious questions were asked)

WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG W/ ME? Why can't I just chillax for once? For a whole month I have nothing but a calm cool cucumber. But now I feel like I need to be admitted or something.

I put a rubber band around my wrist for anytime I think negative things I snapped it. Not sure if this will help the situation though.

Oh yeah, and doing some searching on the Internets yesterday I found out something about M. I will wait to talk to M about what I found before I post though.

Me thinks I like CBB just a smidgen more over M right now too. Sigh.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Well...he said it!

The 3 magical words a girl wants to hear!

CBB: I know this is a little far off..but whats gonna happen when I move back to River Falls?

Ok, so maybe it's not 3 words like I said, but at this stage, for a guy to say this to me, makes me pretty excited.

Though keep in mind, this was said over a text at 2:16am while he was extremely drunk and I was sleeping. Sooo maybe not "sweep me off my feet" material. But, as you know, drunk minds are one of the most truthful/honest minds out there.

I think that I'm excited that he is actually thinking of the future w/ me maybe in it. It's been one month since we met. I have yet to have my fear of him saying "see ya" and never texting or calling me again.

Oh and of course, he is at his dad's cabin for a few days, so we have yet to continue the conversation of what's going to happen. Just my kind of luck.

As for M. Things are still going good w/ him too. After a long cruddy day Wednesday he called me up and we went to see the Ice Age 3 movie. It was cute. M is very affectionate, caring and sweet.

I'm still stuck. I like them both. They both bring different things to the table and I enjoy spending time w/ both of them. It's like picking vanilla or chocolate. I can't decide!