Sunday, June 28, 2009

When it rains, it pours...

And when it pours, you look around saying WTF? How did this happen?

While I was hesitant to post about this, I figured I need to be honest. While you are all familiar w/ CBB, there is also another boy thrown into the mix now. "M" we shall call him. M and I met back in the beginning of summer, 4 days after I met CBB. I know right? I go 4 months without a date to BAM, two cute, cool guys I enjoy hanging out with. M has flown in under the radar though. It's not like how CBB and I met at all. M and I met at school. While I'm normally surrounded by 95% females in my school, this is a general ed class that I have to take, so there is a significant higher selection of dudes for me finally.

M and I were randomly picked to be in the same group for the summer class. Of course Katie and I thought he was really really good looking. He honestly reminded me of the Marine for some reason. Looks wise, he has a lot of the same features of the Marine and also his sense of humor too. A few weeks ago when I was talking to the Marine I mentioned to him that I had met the Palestinian version of him. M is from Palestine and let me tell ya, he's got a great sexy accent. That might be one of the reasons I'm totally crushing on him too.

The 2nd week of class, M and I were walking out of the building together, he mentioned he was hungry and I said I was too (ya know I can always eat!) so he asked if I wanted to go get some sushi. Me being the naive chick here, I said sure. We were eating and talking about things when he told me he thought I was really cute and funny. Of course with a mouth full of sushi and the fact I needed to shower bad I was stunned. Me? Huh? What? I think I might have looked around the restaurant in hopes he was talking about someone else. He assured me again, there was something about me that caught his attention. I was shocked. Cute guys that I think are cute first don't ever find me attractive. We continued to chat and he asked me if I had a boyfriend. If you are following the time line here, it was 1 week and 4 days since I had met CBB. So I said I am single but dating. Heck the only answer I ever know is "yes, I'm completely and utterly single" I mean, I had no idea if CBB was a legit guy or not. And really, M and I were only eating dinner together at this point.

The week in between is when I had the several awesome hang outs w/ CBB. Come this last Monday, M and I were walking out of class w/ Katie. He said he was going to go get some food so I just said bye and hung by Katie. Katie then asked why the heck I didn't go w/ M. Umm I dunno why I didn't. So I called him real quick and asked if I could join him. He said he would love it if I did. We went to a little pizza joint and hung out. At one point he got up to go to the bathroom and when he came back he sat down next to me instead of across from me. He put his arm around me. It didn't feel weird. We talked more and more about family and life. At one point we kissed. The thoughts kept running through my head "is this a dream? Cuz it sure as heck feels like it" While I know there is technically nothing wrong with what I'm doing. CBB and I are not committed to each other. But this kind of stuff NEVER happens to me. Even when I was on, which is a dating heaven for people who like to see multiple people at a time, I always was just talking to one dude at a time. It's just weird.

What is a girl to do? I complain about joining the nunnery at one point, to all of a sudden having two guys thrown on my lap.

I think it's way to soon to call a relationship with either of these guys as well. They both have their pluses and negatives. To make matters even more confusing, they are complete opposites of each other. CBB is this big burly, "Wisconsin dude" manly man who wants to own his own brewery someday. M on the other hand is the good looking, suave, clean cut kind of guy who doesn't drink alcohol. I guess the only thing they have in common is that they like me.

Monday, June 22, 2009

As the story continues...

Soooooo this is what it feels like to date and actually have a good time? To get all giddy and excited when the boy you have a crush on texts you. I like the giddy feeling, but normally when I feel the giddy feeling I'm stuck w/ a panic attack to go right with it. The panic attack then takes over and I'm left thinking DATING SUCKS. The boy doesn't call back, the boy says he doesn't like to make plans, the boy disappears, the boy comes up w/ every excuse to not hang out w/ you but then keeps you latched on just for the heck of it.

Yes I know it's only been 2 weeks w/ CBB. Don't worry, I'm not planning our wedding or signing my name w/ his last name...yet...KIDDING. I wouldn't do that.

But the reasoning for my calm and cool demeanour? Because CBB has done the unthinkable.

He says what he means and does what he says. There haven't been mixed messages here. There hasn't been the "should I call him or will I annoy him?" worry. No "well he said he would call me, yet 4 days later my phone hasn't rung yet".

So if this is what dating is like, then sign me up folks, I'm having a good time for once!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Boy meets Girl

This is a story of boy meets girl.

Boy meets girl as he is kicking her out of the brewery due to it closing. Girl is feeling very ballsy and with a little liquid courage starts talking to bouncer boy. Bouncer boy knows drunk girls last name because he checked her ID at the front door. Drunk girl is intrigued by bouncer boy and starts talking to him about everything and anything. Drunk girl then decides that she should hang out w/ new found boy because he seems cool. Drunk girl gives her number to him and invites him out the next night. Drunk girl leaves the bar. Bouncer boy then texts drunk girl and invites her to bar again where he works.

From then on girl is finding herself hanging out at the brewery where boy works. Boy is very cute. Boy also thinks girl is cute and tells her that. Boy is very good about refilling beer for girl. This makes girl very happy.

Boy invites girl out to a friends party. Girl finds herself having a very good time and not feeling awkward. Girl is finding herself liking boy even more.

Boy and girl *finally* kiss in parking lot after boy takes girl back to her car.

Boy then texts girl to make sure she got home safe. *swoon*

Boy says fo sho which is one of girls favorite sayings.

Boy says he will call. Boy DOES call. Boy asks girl to go to Devil's Lake next Sunday.

Girl is happy.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Another one bites the dust....

Yup. You heard me right. Yet another guy is gone out of my life. Wha?!?! Did you miss some great story of me dating some random guy? Nope. It's sadly one of my good guy friends. Ray. Well I guess he isn't a good guy friend anymore huh?

Without going in to too much drama and sob story about the whole situation it's basically this. It wasn't a mutual defriend by any means. Yes there was an argument that happened back in APRIL that was apologized for the stupid things I said. I admit, I said stupid things. But guess what, I apologized right away and he said "don't worry about it" and then he said "I want to be the guy there for you" oh and the best line EVER "I'll call you tomorrow, I promise"

It's now JUNE. No call. No nothing. Oh yes, I have called. I have called quite a few times and text. Am I being crazy girl? Probably. But for the love of God, this guy has been my friend for the last 5 years. He has seen me thru all my ups and downs and is the person I tell 99% of my worries of life and everything under the sun. And we have only seen each other 3 times in our life. How does one become this close w/ a dude aside from marrying him? By talking on the phone for 5 years. That's how. And now it's all basically come to an end for me. I don't know what to do or say any more. I keep correlating this to the big breakup w/ Stupid Boy in 07. My feelings are hurt beyond belief right now. No guy has made me feel this way since Stupid Boy. The worst part of all............I don't even know what I did wrong!!!!!!!!!!! He won't even tell me why he isn't talking to me anymore. WHO DOES THAT TO THEIR FRIENDS? Yes, I have been partial to defriending some of my friends over the years, but with the other defriendings, there has been a last word of "don't talk to me every again" or "I hate you, you smell" not "I promise to call you tomorrow" And then NEVER hearing from them again!

I have come to the conclusion, I really can't trust what guys say anymore. Not even my guy friends. How sad is that?

Here are some of the great quotes guys have said to me that mean jack squat:

"If I don't call you for a few days, it doesn't mean I don't care, it just means I'm really busy" This was done by Shady Matt. Of course after saying this he proceeded to never call me back.

"I don't like to games" Said by Scuba Steve. Really Scuba? I think taking a good 48 hours to return a girls call back is playing games.

"Yeah, I can't wait to go to the concert tomorrow w/ you, I'll call you about details" This one was said by that Kurt guy a few months back. He ended up being sick and then getting rid of me the next day.

"I'll never let another guy hurt you" Said by yours truly, Stupid Boy. Little did he know after we broke my dating life has been all down hill.

"We should hang out sometime" Said by.....crap I can't remember his name...oh Preston. And I'm sure other guys have said those same words to me too.

"I don't want you to think I'm using you for a booty call" Of course The Marine. Yes, dude of course you are only wanting to use me for a booty call or for your NCAA basketball brackets.

"I'll call you sometime" Said by every guy out there.

I'm sure I could think of a trillion more, but that might just get a little too depressing.

I give up. I'm throwing in the towel at this point with the whole male species.

How does one enter the nunnery? Seriously.