3 years ago Stupid Boy was breaking up w/ me for the 14,000th time
2 years ago I was sleeping with a guy who I knew had a girlfriend and I was dating Tony Bologna
1 year ago I embarked on this dating challenge
And today. I'm still alone. Very alone. Yes, I have friends and family. But it's not the same.
Did I honestly think that after a year of this, I would still be in the same exact position I was in when I went out on that first Match.com date w/ that Scott guy? Nope. I thought I would come away with something. Something. But I have nothing. Again, I'm not talking friends and family.
I can't tell you the amounts of texts I have read over and thought "what does this guy mean?' Or the he says one thing but does another thing.
I actually went on a date with a guy over a week ago, but I kept it secret from here. Maybe if I didn't blog about it I would have success. Wishful thinking on my part. It of course is not going anywhere. The kicker of course "I like you Andrea, but I don't want to be in a committed relationship" Yup and also tell me what a great girl I am before you kick me in the heart. Thanks dude.
I'm done. I've cried enough tears over guys at this point. I've blogged a years worth here. Not gonna lie, it's sad and pathetic.
I don't know when I'll start blogging again. I'm not trying to be a whole pity party here. I obviously can't seem to get this dating thing right or even friendship with a guy right (speaking of the Bus Driver, he contacted me again and said "lets go to lunch" stupidly I believed he wanted to and called. Yup. He never returned my call). No matter what I do or say with a guy. It's wrong. People tell me to just be me. And I am. I just give up at this point.